Luxury Waking Up

The experience of awaking this morning was delightful. As soon as I realised I was awake I started saying a few loving phrases from the list inside gently, just whatever occurs, ‘I love you, I support you, you are safe, I accept you’. Such a beautiful and warming way to start the day. Luxury start.

In and out of sleep for half an hour or so, absorbed in this feeling of love, appreciation and gratitude. Feeling the beautiful comfort of the bed, the warmth of the blankets on my skin. It is a robust climate to create around oneself. Fear doesn’t seem to get the tiniest look in. It has been ages since I’ve had a significant worry thought.

Small fears arrive here and there. Can be a random work related worry, and they don’t take root now, not when I’m feeling on my own side to this extent now. There’s a worry about how to deal with familiar others, family and old friends, that arose when I asked my defence system what it was afraid of.

It replied that it was worried that these changes I’m undergoing may evoke a negative reaction in others. That they might get angry with me, take offence on some way. They might think I’m being off, or superior or some other thing. My responses may be different, as I move into more authentic responses and so ‘off the normal script’. The defences fear I may end up alone and isolated without support if people take offence. Thank you defences for voicing that fear so clearly.

Less contact is happening with people just now and and on social media. It is just the way it is has been as I go though whatever this is. And this morning I shared the list with a few people, it was received positively so I shared it on Facebook. Let’s see. Here’s the post.

‘This started as an experiment on myself and I’ve been experiencing unexpectedly positive results.

I’ve been saying 3 or 4 random phrases from the list first thing in the morning immediately on awaking (or if I wake in the middle of the night) and throughout the day, whichever ones occur and I can remember. I’ve noticed that worry thoughts have decreased a lot, and they don’t really get a chance to take hold in the mornings the more confident I’ve become with using it.

On some days when I struggle to feel or believe it, I put my hand on my chest or both hands, and somehow that gesture of warmth and reassurance helps it go in a bit better.’

I love you

I respect you

I care about you

I appreciate you

I like you

I value you

I’m here for you

You are held

You are safe

You are loved

You are accepted

I support you