Unwell yet Happy


More useful adversity. I have been a little unwell this week with a sore throat, chest infection and cough. I had a transesophageal echocardiogram at hospital on Monday, slightly invasive with a camera down my throat but a little sedated which helped. They said I’d have a sore throat for a couple of days but I guess it has become a bit of an infection of some kind.

Strange thing is that I’ve had a great week of deeply resting and looking after myself, removing all pressure to do or achieve anything, feeling free, just being moment to moment. No wondering what to do. No shoulds. Things getting done though even so.

Forced relinquishing of trying to be in control of anything. It has been marvellously freeing actually. Just being for long long stretches. Feeling contentment or no need to do anything else. And next to no stress.

Did a covid test just to check and it’s not that. Had half hoped it was to get some of those nice long last antibodies.

Nothing profound to say here today – I wanted to record the process and specifically that few if any stories are running these last few days, or they start and tend to run out of steam. No anxiety at all.

I’ve met up with a couple of different lovely friends for walks and tea and cake this week, and visited both construction sites, a meeting with the clients to choose their plants. So life is getting done and I have some regular quality company though not so often just now. Big changes happening with this opening up and I’m being particular who I’m around.

I’m experiencing gratitude. That being unwell can yield such beneficial fruit! And confirming that even adversity is beneficial, it is all to help us.

Found this carving on a tree the other day, well a friend noticed it. I took it as a good omen 🙂

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