I needed to cheer myself up today after a few days of being in a mood slump. It has hit me hard having to let go of people, and it has been hard to come to accept that I no longer have a part to play in some people’s lives and vice versa. Also my beloved dog is nearing the end of her life and I have a lot of sadness about letting her go. I let this sadness have space to be felt recently, cuddled myself up with lots of self compassion and it is time to put my attention elsewhere for a while today. I read once that to help yourself, help others, so this is where I’m focusing for a while. It really thrills me the idea of being a part of positive change in the world, even in a small way. And I love the idea of helping people to feel better about who they are, and to love and appreciate themselves more.
So this morning I got bagging the first 10 self love books which I bought. I will leave anonymously around the place, in the park, in the playground, on a pavement…anywhere that someone will pick them up. I like the idea of letting the Tao decide who gets the book!
I would like to expand this and I am pondering how I can do this effectively. Perhaps set up a charity and raise funds to buy empowering books and distribute them anonymously? I love the idea of including ’emotionally intelligent parenting’ and ‘attachment parenting’ books, and sending them to expectant parents and self empowerment books especially written for kids sent to kids. I started doing this many years ago. When I left to live abroad in 1998, I bagged up all my self growth and spiritual books and chose random people in the phone book and sent them to them through the post. On reflection, I think direct mailing to a person’s home address is a little too invasive.
When my son was at school I bought 20 copies of a marvellous book called ‘The Emotionally Intelligent Classroom Workbook’ and sent them to his teachers anonymously with a little note to say thank you for all their hard work. I could continue with this too. I am pretty sure these actions have planted a few small seeds at least.